tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78749542364898118662024-02-07T13:36:46.855+08:00人生的一幕vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.comBlogger74125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-51427779051722176802009-06-25T00:53:00.003+08:002009-06-25T01:01:17.054+08:00彩虹<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCC99;">昨天下午下了一场大雨,被困在学校一个小时。。大雨后,太阳又跑出来了。。陪jason去拿脚车。。就在这时候,看到了好久没看过的彩虹。。这彩虹很大叻。。看到吗??</span></div><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLPvlg1kf0fwzdhX4rF5Bv5Xb4nrsEWvgk1FlyT09SXonmVOQrhCWb_7YhDiP2JAoX1pIIcAbAdgxJlRF-bSip8uWAz_oBM6up44VF5XyM2wc2YCh4AncFpdnIeJyrY7YBruyLpSW7fXo/s320/Image018.jpg" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5350938290030732402" /><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCFF;">Full view..</span></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCIcsq-91UD7XDsl2fTDEYCT7fc_suDawoNEixcQAfic1CHxBdufZWbHmGrrzoQBYbQg_P5UZrCs9-v3KFuZbmdtLNoA10jT3VFumymoSbEE7Eba2d0lfS0CHkfgp_3wYlD7XCDXE_HXw/s1600-h/Image033.jpg"></a><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCIcsq-91UD7XDsl2fTDEYCT7fc_suDawoNEixcQAfic1CHxBdufZWbHmGrrzoQBYbQg_P5UZrCs9-v3KFuZbmdtLNoA10jT3VFumymoSbEE7Eba2d0lfS0CHkfgp_3wYlD7XCDXE_HXw/s1600-h/Image033.jpg" style="text-decoration: none;"><img style="text-align: left;display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; cursor: pointer; width: 240px; height: 320px; " src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCIcsq-91UD7XDsl2fTDEYCT7fc_suDawoNEixcQAfic1CHxBdufZWbHmGrrzoQBYbQg_P5UZrCs9-v3KFuZbmdtLNoA10jT3VFumymoSbEE7Eba2d0lfS0CHkfgp_3wYlD7XCDXE_HXw/s320/Image033.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5350938388215381458" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCFF;">彩虹的一端。。</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCC99;">因为有彩虹,让人看到许多色彩,因此也让人对生命报有希望和期待。。这样人生才会精彩和惊喜。。</span></div><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div></div>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-80972576931582848572009-06-21T01:57:00.002+08:002009-06-22T00:23:29.509+08:00祝我生日快乐!!<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCCC;">有长大一岁了。。哈哈!!终于迈进二字头了。。二加零等于二十(2 + 0 = 20)。。感觉好冷噢。。二十岁要有二十岁的成熟,不可以再像小孩子一样任性了。。感觉好像有点难。。因为我本来就很幼稚。。哈哈。。今年的生日怎么过呢??让我告诉你吧。。</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCCC;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCCC;">本小姐本来打算星期五回subang,找我那班可爱的死党庆祝的。。可是我却很聪明的,没有赶得及乘搭那一趟火车。。因为,那个伟大的德士司机竟然没有来载我到火车站去。。想到就生气。。浪费我的电话前,时间,和火车票。。气到我要发狂。。到电话问他时,他竟然跟我说他不记得,说对不起。。这位善忘的安哥,我再也不会叫你的德士了。。</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCCC;"><br /></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCCC;">凌晨的时候被dear骗,骗我有人打电话来。。后面偷偷准备蛋糕。。算有惊喜吧。。虽然自己其实有猜到他会买蛋糕。。哈哈。。算他过关咯。。</span></div></div><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgfQyvHH-fvsLN4B4Dq0OpRN7oMIhGtS_QArs94pOAUU9q1sUAW50a_1tyYw26PFrdCBvExHI9_ZnvkeqTNOM5dv93h7lciUlpYKkA1CSFAdjhHxKLIJNnRtlRGw0Mu51FaR-YNesH80t4/s320/Image060.jpg" style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5349807671220292802" /><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCFF;">dear 准备的蛋糕。。</span></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwAIACuLflmPwKv4L8WyAisRT8zaItptzFXF9d8qALle19RXXm2n-GbArNTmAI_qMJHF3vX4eEz16q9tFWUcBJ7AZoAxq8eNJKJJyMI-4X1wsqLvK1vqnvZezta5mHBHIZZLX73JlaIQs/s1600-h/Image061.jpg"></a><div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwAIACuLflmPwKv4L8WyAisRT8zaItptzFXF9d8qALle19RXXm2n-GbArNTmAI_qMJHF3vX4eEz16q9tFWUcBJ7AZoAxq8eNJKJJyMI-4X1wsqLvK1vqnvZezta5mHBHIZZLX73JlaIQs/s1600-h/Image061.jpg" style="text-decoration: none;"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgwAIACuLflmPwKv4L8WyAisRT8zaItptzFXF9d8qALle19RXXm2n-GbArNTmAI_qMJHF3vX4eEz16q9tFWUcBJ7AZoAxq8eNJKJJyMI-4X1wsqLvK1vqnvZezta5mHBHIZZLX73JlaIQs/s320/Image061.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5349809439234352322" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCFF;">dear 送的小熊。。 可爱吗??</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8bHmJI9CoySQuGGUoXe3ZkagzGNsmPk2-p54rPx_0xtxxTBOBsdbeuKLqUn-lWhwLDrp3onLJJR8XTFF7_K2dU3fyV8R5jp858YPMdLZCVRR8m7edEc5BRclGnt7a5QfziW8kHTH2mlI/s1600-h/Image018.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8bHmJI9CoySQuGGUoXe3ZkagzGNsmPk2-p54rPx_0xtxxTBOBsdbeuKLqUn-lWhwLDrp3onLJJR8XTFF7_K2dU3fyV8R5jp858YPMdLZCVRR8m7edEc5BRclGnt7a5QfziW8kHTH2mlI/s320/Image018.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5349808681037657874" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCFF;">may 和 leong 送的礼物。。</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCCC;">生日没什么特别啦。。第一次跟男朋友过生日咯。。成天两个人。。第一次这么少人陪我过生日。。还满怀念以前一班人出去走走,吃东西庆祝的那一刻。。不过,今年的很简单啦。。就在家看看戏,做做功课和出去吃晚餐。。简简单单也可以很快乐了。。</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">其实整天都在等祝福的短讯。。虽然不多啦。。有</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">1) Yi Lian</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">2) Chee Shan</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">3) Joan</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">4) Joe Hui</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">5) Hui Nien</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">6) Shao Li</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">7) Xinnee</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">8) Liang Ping</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">9) Fong Voon</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">10) Marcus</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">11) Yen Chin</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">12) Ze Lene</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">13) Jason</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">14) Kim Leong</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">15) Ying Wai</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">16) Sister</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">17) Brother</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">18) Kor</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">19) Kalai</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">20) Huey Ling</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">21) Pui Yen</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">22) Kay Sim</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">23) Thu Yuen</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">24) Ke Jun</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">25) Mei Seong</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">26) Shyan Jen</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">27) Sharon Chua</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">28) Kuan Nien</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">29) Paul</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">30) Svenni</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#CCCCFF;">谢咯大家。。</span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color:#FFCCCC;">很期待其他人的礼物哦。。回subang要慢慢研究了。。哈哈。。</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-44548064167390091492009-04-12T15:39:00.002+08:002009-04-12T16:21:08.470+08:00=.=<span style="color:#ffccff;">原来自己是这么的没用。。说好不要去想,不要为这一切感到难过,不要再去在乎这一切,可是自己原来根本做不到。。朋友对你而言,到底是什么?我想朋友最高境界应该是<span style="font-size:78%;">可有可无</span>吧。。可是,这还称得上朋友吗?</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">我已经有好多天没跟这些所谓的朋友说话了。。我已经不懂自己要把你们当成朋友,还是陌生人呢??越来越不了解你们。。问题是出在自己身上,还是别人呢?不知道。。这整个学期都在烦恼这件事。。</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">原来,人类是这么</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">虚伪</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">的。。害怕别人超越自己,而戴上</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">面具</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">做人。。有必要吗??朋友到底是什么??不明白。。真希望你们可以好好想想。。需要这样做吗?难道你们不辛苦吗?或许,对你们而言,朋友就是应该</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">互相利用</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">吧。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">我面对你们,真的很</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">累</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">了。。对你们坏,我不忍心;把你们当透明,我办不到。。问题好像是自己太在乎你们的存在。。有些人问我:"难道你在班上没有一个比较好的朋友吗?"我不知道要怎样回答。。我想,那个比较好的朋友已经</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">放弃</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">了这段友谊了吧。。我想,我也是时候放下这段友谊了。。或许。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">原来爱情本来就是排在第一位。。现在,我明白了。。哈哈!!有时觉得自己很可笑。。或许,我也是把感情放在第一位吧。。只是,自己还没找到自己的归属而已。。</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">我懂,现在开始有流言非语说我有新目标了。。有些人</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">嘴巴</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">就是这么</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">得空</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">,喜欢说人家的私事。。</span><span style="font-size:78%;color:#9999ff;">我是喜欢一个人啊</span>。。<span style="color:#ffccff;">想知道不会来问我啊?在我背后猜测有用吧?喜欢人家是我的事,你幸福是你的事。。拥有了就要抓紧。。</span><span style="font-size:78%;color:#9999ff;">不要好奇还没比你幸福的人的事</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">。。有什么事,请冲着我来,不要影响到其他人。。懂吗?嘴巴是你们的,我控制不了。。可是,我希望你们闭上你们的嘴巴,管好自己的事。。有什么想法,请自己来跟我说,我不想听到别人传话。。明白吗?</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-60770611748739761702009-03-15T03:16:00.001+08:002009-03-15T03:18:21.929+08:00人生=死亡<span style="color:#ffcccc;">人生就是这么的反覆无常。这一刻对你嘻嘻哈哈的人,可能下一秒再也不存在。这就是人生吗?一个让人们觉得可怕的字眼。。人生的尽头就是死亡。没有人能长命百岁,每个人都要面临死亡。。问题是死神总是在人类还没准备好面对的时候,找上人类。死神从不给你一丝机会说"不"。为什么?现实总是这么残酷?为什么人类没有选择的机会。。为什么死神无时无刻都在寻找"猎物"?人类就只能被死神操控?为什么人类就是不能操控自己的人生?</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">死亡或许并没有想象中可怕。对一些人来说,死亡或许是一种解脱,一个远离痛苦的选择。死亡给人类重生的机会。可是,对许多人而言,死亡是多么的可怕。死亡让人类和亲爱的家人,朋友分开,离开人世,一步一步地走向黑暗的地狱。一个人孤独的走向人生的另一端。这时候,又有多少个人可以勇敢地面对死亡。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">人类都会害怕死亡的。任何人在面对死亡的时候都会变得格外的胆小。"害怕"这两个字,已经无法形容那一刻的感受。人类是会贪心的,没有人希望自己的人生是短暂的,可以的话,人类都希望能长命百岁。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">相信,许多人都有规划自己人生的习惯吧,计划自己的未来,想做的事,想完成的愿望,想达到的目标。可是,又有多少人,可以在短暂的人生中真正完成自己的理想呢?想。。答案应该是不多吧。你呢?你会规划自己的人生吗?我的答案是"不会"。这不是因为懒散,或者是没有理想。这是因为我想做的事情太多了。不规划人生是因为害怕自己无法完成自己的理想,是因为不想带着遗憾离开。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">或许,这有点悲观,可是这是事实。时间是不会为你而停留的。想做的事情,有机会去完成时,就要去实行。时间和机会是不会等你的。不要让自己留下任何遗憾。珍惜眼前人才是重点,错过的已成了历史。不要让自己有借口在记忆中徘徊。</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-56215081233591320662009-01-15T20:52:00.002+08:002009-01-15T20:57:00.302+08:00Kamparrrrrrrr~~~<span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">so long din write blog dy..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">went to kampar and staying there now..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">life here so boring..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">no entertaiment, not shopping mall..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">only got campus and yam cha places..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">haiz..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">classes here start so early..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">everyday have to wake up early..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">sienz~~</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">everyday go to campus with empty empty mind and blur blur face..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">the classes here also end so late..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">in between got so many hours break..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">crazy!!!</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">no transport cannot go out..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">everyday travel to campus and back home..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(204, 204, 255);">no life la...</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-3346711819738286542008-11-10T13:18:00.002+08:002008-11-10T13:32:36.627+08:00??<span style="color:#ffcccc;">有时候,我写的东西或许你们不了解。。我没有要求你们去明白。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">之前的那个文章根本就不是在说我放不下,请不要瞎猜。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">你已经是过去式,我不会强求。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">我只是希望你们开开心心。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">我没有坏到要去诅咒你们。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">谁不懂爱情是不能勉强的??</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">不是我的,强求也没用。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">你们要误会我,我也没办法。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">如果每一件事,可以为所欲为的话,我就不需要去烦了。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">你们要怎么想我管不着。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">我不懂事情会变成这样。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">好好想想吧。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">有些话,说了是收不回的。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">我没办法让你们了解我。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">也没办法去控制你们是怎样想我的。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">我需要的是朋友,偶尔会为我着想的朋友,不时会去怀疑我人格的朋友。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">我是很想放弃这一切,可是我不会去做。。</span><br /><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ffcc99;">因为我会活得更好</span><span style="color:#ffcccc;">。。</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-34646067764311413472008-10-31T22:12:00.004+08:002008-10-31T22:35:48.922+08:00绝交<span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">曾经</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">我们是无话不谈的好朋友,</span><br /><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">曾经</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">我们是多么的依赖对方,</span><br /><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">曾经</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">我把你放在一个很重要的位子,</span><br /><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">曾经</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">我多么的想维持我们之间的友谊,</span><br /><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">曾经</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">我多么的在意你。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">那都是</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">曾经</span>!!<br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">你们能在一起,我会祝福你们。。在同一个时间,我想我必须放弃我们之间的友谊。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">我没有你们想象中这么伟大。。我没办法跟你们做朋友。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">你利用我对你的信任。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">你懂我对你有多失望吗??</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">我以为好朋友是什么都可以分享的,原来是我错了。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">爱情是自私的。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">在你拥有爱情的那一刻,你有想过我的感受吗?</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">你懂我有多难受吗?</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">我</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">不甘心</span>,<span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">不甘心</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">为什么自己默默付出,却什么都没得到。。</span><br /><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">不甘心</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">你什么都没做,为什么你却能拥有。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">我</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">讨厌</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">!!</span><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff0000;">讨厌</span><span style="color:#ffccff;">你不会做人!!</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">不要以为自己很委屈。。我并不需要低声下气来央求你做我的朋友。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">你的事,我不管了。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">祝你好运!!!</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-44101953897970157142008-08-20T12:05:00.001+08:002008-08-20T12:07:05.129+08:00懊恼!!<span style="color:#ffcccc;">真讨厌!!为什么要换时间?下星期有三个考试叻。。都不懂要怎样开始读。。每个考试隔的时间又不多。不知道够不够时间温习完。。开始担心了。。这几天都在做礼物。。每晚都很迟睡觉。。不过,算了啦。。自己傻傻要去做。。现在快完成了。。很开心叻。。=)哈哈。。</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">已经确定明年会去金宝了。。现在又得烦恼去那儿要跟住。。要住哪里也还是个问题。。跟朋友开玩笑说,没地方住,就在学校范围内起营,可以省房租。。不错吧!!金宝的朋友,帮我留意一下,看有什么房子是要出租的。。有好介绍记得告诉我哦。。哈哈。。</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-45686508311217237892008-07-24T03:40:00.002+08:002008-07-24T04:34:04.535+08:00Life in Week 9~~<span style="color:#ffcccc;">Wonder why am I blogging so that "early".. Haha.. Just finish up my computer system and application's assignment. Been worry a lot for the assignment. Worry cannot finish it on time, worry last minute work will sauce my lossing marks.. Blaming May for being selfish for going back hometown last.. Niway, sorry for being so not understanding.. I know is not her fault.. She miss home too.. Just that I am not last minute do-er.. I cannot stand the stress for doing last minute.. I am depressing last saturday.. Complaining to Leong about everything.. Crying out to release all my stress and depressing feeling.. I been worry a lot.. Sometime i really wonder, can I actually stand all the stress anymore.. Not mean to complaining about it.. But what I been thinking, if I dont tell, how people will know what am I actually thinking..</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">For me, I admit that I always take the responsibility with me for most of the assignments. Because I know if I dont push them to do the assignment, they will leave it until last minute. I tried not to give them too much pressure, because I know they same as me, have to study for tests.. When I think for them, will they think the same way back to me?? But this is me myself causing all this.. Haha.. Scare this and that.. End up stressing myself up.. I try to stand the stress, but I am human also le.. Will also complain and feel tired de.. Can I have a shoulder when I am tired?? Wonder.. I know a lot of friends care about me.. Thats why I try not to make them worry.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">Now, finally finished one assignment.. Got one more to finish.. Political Science.. Still got time, so let them do slowly la.. Sometime also pity May.. Her work is the heavier.. Need to rephrase and translate the whole assignment paper work.. Sorry for being so unfair.. But your english the best among all of us.. Do it slowly la.. Because next week very busy.. Need to study for tests, do reports.. Try not to pressure her so much.. Haha.. What can we do now is.. Keep adding oil lo.. Until maximum..</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">Yesterday sat for my organic chemistry test.. Kinda disappointed with my answer.. Because what I suppose to know, I forgotten.. All the reactions, mostly I forgotten.. So I can only simply write whataver I think of lo.. I manage finished all the question. except the last question.. Can finish does not mean I can score, ok?? Trying my best to recall back all the reactions and mechanisms, then only realise that.. My brain is EMPTY!! Then, can only simply crap in the test.. Got write some thing, at least better than never answer ma.. Mana tau, maybe kena correct then go marks lo.. Haha.. Have to think positively ma.. Agree with me??</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">===========================</span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;">Talk back about last few weeks.. I read sister's blog.. Realising that she actually facing some of the problems i been facing.. And I suddenly miss grandparents so much.. I stay to miss home.. Suddenly realise how my parents actually care about me.. Although just a call a day, but it means a lot.. I miss my sister warm and touch messages.. Actually, I kinda susprise my sister's messages.. I cried when i read her messages.. Cried not because I am sad, but is because I dont know that she will really read what I wrote.. </span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;">I thought of my childhood.. She used to be protect me when I am small.. I miss that kind of feeling.. Dont know since when, we dont really tell each other about our problems.. I really miss the time we have pillow talk.. Knowing each other questions.. I know you got a lot problems.. Dont all keep in your heart la.. Haha..</span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;">Dont know why suddenly talk about this.. Niway, thanks for the messages.. I can still handle my studies.. Dont worry.. If really cannot stand, I'll also bare with it.. I wont give up that easy.. It is my future, I dont want regret.. Work for the best and try my best to achieve what I want.. Will jia you de.. Haha..</span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#99ffff;">======================</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">This week dont really get enough sleep due to the organic chemistry test.. Everyday study until 2-3am only sleep.. Tuesday practical lab supposed to postpone from 8.30am to 1pm de.. So I studied until 3something in the morning, think of that class start late.. I am doing mechanisms notes until that late.. And I can actually feel that my body cant take it anymore.. Because as time passed by, I start to feel headache, dizzy and feel like vomitting.. But I forced myself to finish it before I can sleep peacefully.. Finally so happy I managed to finish it.. But manatau when 7am that time, May called me..Informed me that the practical lab never postpone.. As usual start at 8.30am.. You know what is my first reaction?? Haha.. Jump out from bed, and shout what the.. I just slept le.. Now need to wake up pulak.. Luckily I never study until 5something in the morning, a bo me practical that time sure pengsan de.. So kelian.. Not enough sleep.. Then after practical, went back home and take a nap.. But then at night no mood study, sleep quite early.. 12something in the morning.. The next day, went to campus early to K book.. Haha.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">Today, I sleep late again.. Kinda emo this week.. Maybe because too stress liao.. Haha.. Tomorrow going to sleep in lecture class.. My Cell Biology tutorial haven do le.. Tomorrow want go copy answer.. Haha.. Degree student lazy to do tutorial.. Realise that I never do most of my tutorial.. Must change liao.. Haha.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">2 more tests(computer lab test and Political Science), 2 more lab reports(Cell Bio and Organic Chemistry) and 2 assingments(Computer and Political Science) to be complete in next week.. Jia you lo!!! Gambateh.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">=======================</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-7790659075214179632008-07-17T12:49:00.002+08:002008-07-17T12:57:19.955+08:00TT<span style="color:#ffcc99;">Just finished my Computer System and Application Test.. Sob sob.. Dont know to do.. Thought lecturer will ask those common abit de question, manatau she go ask those pelik pelik de questions.. Crack my head think for the answer.. But otak kosong de.. At the end, me just simply write whatever I know lo.. The test result sure very teruk de.. No eyes see lo.. Haiz..</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">Exam half way, got a girl pengsan.. Dont know why.. Everyone so curious.. Include me la.. I somemore go 8, see i can help anot.. Haha.. But the friend dont want listen to our advice, then fine lo.. Go back my place continue exam.. But o.. Too excited or some how, I cant concentrate do the test.. No mood to do.. End up asking answer from other people.. Haha.. But not all la.. Just the fill in the blank de.. Blek.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">Tomorrow got presentation le.. Me haven prepare le.. Sob sob.. Dont know what to wear also.. Haiz.. Start to feel nervous ady..</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">===================</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">Next week die hard lo.. because:</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">2 tests, 2 reports, 2 assignments..</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">I WANT DIE LIAO!!!</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">I am not robot le.. Need to complete so many task in a week.. Haiz.. Cannot sleep liao.. </span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-49963172056691691312008-07-04T15:03:00.002+08:002008-07-04T15:20:28.485+08:00wonder~ing<span style="color:#ffcccc;">Life going to be very busy this coming few weeks.. Need to prepare for tests.. Every week also got test.. See the schedule also headache liao.. Want study, but like no mood only.. Do alot of notes, but sendiri still blur blur de.. Everyday sleep late, but need to wake up early.. Want skip class but cannot.. Scare got quiz or lecturer checks attendance.. Alot to worry about..</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">Assignments come one by one.. One haven finish, another come pulak.. Busy solving all the assignments question.. Haiz.. The progress ia kinda slow.. Hope can finish it before the due date la.. Group members like so relax, no worry de.. Or I really worry too much a?? Wonder.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">Want give people pressure, end up sendiri pulak stress up.. So useless la.. Start to work hard this week.. Do revision, do reports, do tutorials, stop playing.. Haha.. Because I scare to score low in my test.. Kiasu..</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">==========================</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">Sometime just dont know why.. Feel like to be alone.. Dont feel like talking to other people.. Dont like people ask alot of questions.. Just want to sit there quietly, think of something else.. Sometime feel like emotionally unstable.. Feel stress, but dont know where is the stress come from.. Communication break down with friends.. Really wonder what happen.. What I acually doing here?? Dont know..</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-41643130833533448012008-06-19T23:18:00.003+08:002008-06-19T23:48:49.682+08:00<span style="color:#ff6666;">Monday class started at 3pm.. Went to campus when other people were about to finish class.. Haha.. The practical was quite easy.. Food test.. But kinda boring.. Rushing to finish the report.. So cham le.. Because the next day have to pass up Organic Chemistry lab report.. Itu Ruey Shin la.. Said cannot copy terus from the internet.. Make me have to change my report last minute.. So tiring le.. Stress stress.. Finally done at 10something at night.. Then, Ah Leong fetched me home with bike.. Haha.. Scary le.. Almost cannot stand when come down from the bike..<br /><br />When reached home, I am actually planning to study Cell Biology.. Suddenly so semangat want study.. Mana tau!! Saw a cockcroach in my room.. My first reaction was go to kitchen to take Shieldtox.. Spread all over the room, end up have to wash my bed sheet.. Hand so pain le.. Wash it with hand le.. My house no WASHING MACHINE!! I mean my house in Setapak la.. Then kena za by Ah Leong.. So chammm.... Whole night cannot sleep well..<br />====================<br /></span><span style="color:#ffcc99;">Tuesday class started at 8.30am.. I woke up at 7.45am.. Then, rush to campus.. Thought I will be late.. Manatau.. Actually still got 15 minutes before class start.. Make me walk like orang gila only.. Run and walk, sweating like mad.. But the practical was so teruk la.. Me just like blur blur, do not how to start my practical.. Sob sob..<br /><br />Finished class at 1pm.. Went to Jusco.. Have lunch there.. Shakey's Pizza got so many cockcroaches... Sob sob.. Saw Michelle and Ah Leong buying food there.. We went to Ah Leong's house had dinner.. Then, Michelle they all want go swim.. I followed to go see them swim.. Itu Ah Leong push me down.. Dont believe that I dont know to swim la.. Play with me.. Kena 2 times.. Very malu le.. Continually 2 times loss balance.. Sure scared other people.. Haha.. My balancing ability in water=0..<br /><br />At night. May and I went home.. Ah Leong fetched us back home, then Marcus come find us.. Saw Peat Peat in my house.. Then, we talk talk talk.. Until midnight.. Then, go yam cha.. Then, go back continue talk talk.. Haha.. You know?? End up...4 of us squeeze in the small room.. And I only get to sleep at 5something in the morning.. When I woke up, headache le.. Feel so terrible le..<br />====================<br /></span><span style="color:#ffccff;">Wednesday went to Sungei Wang again.. Go there do nothing.. Walk without any destination.. Just walk around with Peat Peat.. Then, we went back home.. Staying at Prima.. Marcus teman-ed me go PV10 collect my shirt.. Went for dinner after that.. Lester followed along.. And we played poker there.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">TODAY i slept at 2something in the morning.. Others were continue play 21 until 6am.. End up all skipped class.. Bad bad example..<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">======================</span><span style="color:#ffccff;"><br /></span><span style="color:#ff99ff;">Thursday, I went to campus alone, sitting KTAR bus.. Itu bus drive in to KTAR campus area.. Make me sesat in the KTAR campus.. So memalukan le.. When walked out, saw Wilson.. So surprise to see him there..<br /><br />ALmost late for class again.. Actually plan to listen during the lecture.. End up sleeping in the class.. Haha.. Today cannot sleep again.. Having bad headache.. Haiz...</span><br /><span style="color:#ff99ff;">===================</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-57741877087001557632008-06-15T17:12:00.005+08:002008-06-15T17:45:30.211+08:00Mickey MP3~~<div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff66;"><br /></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff66;">I went to Sungei Wang on wednesday. Went there with May and Marcus. Actually just planning to walk around, search for something that is cute and interesting. Haha.. Finally, I found one~~ Which is a Mickey MP3..<img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212034533993120818" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiRRT3KQEAeOvGzvPGW8MiXykOn4PoSoE4ApzQmlX4fJRfh-zsVPMbwy1HEHBMoHjxAC-Awoi6E_TGiKSg8-0zfGOvJgfvOMJldthqEGBo8JxCV9lrRzsya1I-65nfnm0-ohd8uQZYgSIw/s320/mickeymp3.jpg" border="0" /></span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff66;">It got 5 colors.. But I prefer white color de.. Nicer.. But sister said will get dirty very easily.. Quite true la.. Silver color also not bad la.. Haha..</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ffff66;"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212034290893828994" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" height="276" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaGdZpmSf3bJtZAqARcd21ibyhLBRx-d23myoOgDBt1zQ7bqxdv41FHThBld9escqdX6fZNwLhD5Oa6EskHneovVEfOQ1E4GKXvrTMqdupUR2BB7HgBw_7ig1y5ulzfCawQ7OzTIvL07A/s320/mickey_mouse_mp3_player_the_mplayer_02.jpg" width="320" border="0" /></span></div><p align="center"><span style="color:#ffff66;">This is how it function.. Quite cute right? It is also something special about this MP3.. Different from other MP3..</span></p><p align="left"><span style="color:#ffff66;">Then, we went to ask for the price. The first shop said is Rm95 for 1 GB. Ok, fine.. The price considered quite cheap for a Disney product la.. Then, we went for second shop. There only sell RM 89 for 1 GB and RM119 for 2 GB. walk walk half way, see got another shop selling the MP3. Go forward and ask for the price again. They sell cheapest le.. RM 80 for 1 GB and RM110 for 2GB.. Haha.. It is getting cheaper.. Haiz.. But me no money buy yet..</span></p><p align="left"><span style="color:#ffff66;">And also that day, we went to makan at Sushi King.. Ordered Salmon Steak.. Sharing with May.. 6 of us all together eating at Sushi King and it costs us RM100+.. Haha.. First time eat Sushi King.. Quite enjoy and having fun there.. Miss it.. Haha..</span></p><p align="left"><span style="color:#ffff66;">After dinner, we went to buy Big Apple donuts.. </span></p><p align="left"><span style="color:#ffff66;">Been spending a lot at that day.. Sob sob.. Cannot spend so much next week.. Haiz..</span></p><p align="left"><span style="color:#ffff66;">Birthday coming lo.. Haha.. Getting old 1 year.. Cant wait to go out with friends.. =p</span></p><p align="left"><span style="color:#ffff66;">This week is the happier week.. Trying a lot of new thing.. Haha.. </span></p><p align="left"><span style="color:#ffff66;">Thanks to Wei Leong and Ruai Shin for fetching me home.. Haha.. Quite enjoy the moment that i sitting on the motorcycle.. Haha.. Think I am addicted to that kind of feeling.. Very hard to explain.. Just feel that when sitting behind, wind blow that time, you will like you can think properly, can see thing clearly.. Haha.. Understand a??</span></p>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-16789697304394462522008-06-07T19:34:00.002+08:002008-06-07T19:52:08.498+08:00sick~~<u>THUR</u><br />Thursday that time, we went to May's room in Prima. Itu May May Yam Yam so blur la, lose her card.. The journey also not fun liao.. Haha.. Because very mafan without the card. Cannot go in or out without the card. Mafan!!<br /><br />Then we went out for dinner. We ate at two different places, so funny la.. Chatting and had dinner there. Ate half way, head kena hit by some one.. Itu Ah Leong a, say hi like this, some more called me Miss Pig.. So cham.. But never mind because i called him Mr Debit Card, because he took the debit card form when I saw him in campus cafeteria.. Haha..<br /><br />BUT.. I am sick on that day.. Sob Sob..<br /><br />===================================<br /><u>FRI</u><br />Friday was so blur.. Still sick, but still have to go to school.. No choice, cannot skip class. Me so guai.. Haha. Perasannya.. Blek.. Reached home, mum making kuih cang, helped for the whole afternoon. Me so guai le, but the real reason is.. I the only one left at home, so have to help la..<br /><br />===================================<br /><u>SAT</u><br />Sleepy~~<br /><br />Whole day sleep, now still feel like sleeping.. No wonder he called me Miss Pig.. Haha..vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-21487839338768143952008-06-05T00:00:00.004+08:002008-06-05T00:15:28.069+08:00SEtaPAk~~<span style="color:#ff6666;"><em>Finally, me shifted out from home. Now staying at Setapak. Haha.. But my room very warm le, because dont have fan. So this few days i been tumpang-ing at friend's house. Wait for Marcus to borrow me the fan. Haha..</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em>But abit tak biasa la.. Because all my house mates are damn hardworking, every time see them, they all sure holding book study de.. Haiz.. This really make me stress le.. So, I planning start study next week, after I get the fan first. Cannot play play liao.. My class fellow all so hardworking, especially those from STPM..</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em>Me today staying at Prima.. Playing around whole day, never study.. All May's fault.. Make me cannot study.. Haha.. Whole day keep on eating only.. Now tummy not feeling well liao.. Sob sob.. A lot of food inside my tummy.. Haiz..</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em>Just now went to the festival hold by SRC in campus. They selling food and drinks there. We ordered the pearl tea. Vern Mein and I ordered chocolate pearl tea, but itu May different abit. She ordered Mango pearl tea. Funniest thing is the fella incharge called May as Vivian. Haha.. So funny la.. We should exchange our name. Haha..</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em>Some more itu Marcus want chuan me that Wan Chying called him. Blek. My boy boy also got called me, k? But he so bad la, keep ask me dont go back Subang Jaya. Haha.. But too bad la, because I am going back there.. </em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><em>Stay here so boring la.. Dont know what to eat also.. Everyday eat back the same food, sien.. Haha.. And dad not going to buy a new car liao because the petrol price rise again. Haiz.. I cannot have car to drive and Kien Mun dont want come find me because petrol price rise, sob sob.. But never mind la.. I still can be understandable..=p I am so good.. <span style="font-size:85%;">(Cheh, me so perasan le..)</span></em></span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-87327552261315492692008-05-31T20:16:00.004+08:002008-05-31T23:26:32.010+08:00No TIME!!<span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em>Today shifted all my stuff to Setapak, then we went to find Kim Leong. Mana tau he not feeling well.. Parents keep saying I stupid, dont know to call him from the window, stand there like idiot only. Haiz. I am speechless.. But never mind, since I will be leaving home soon.. Haha..</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em>After that, went to mum's friend's shop to have brunch.. Haha.. I think the food is ok la.. But mum keep complaint that not delicious. But never mind, friend ma.. So the aunt counted the bill quite cheap la.. Haha..</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em>Then, we went to dad's working place. Before that, we dropped by a shoe factory. Because there having warehouse sales.. Teman mum go buy shoes.. But not me buying la.. so boring stand there.. Finally, mum bought a pair of high heels, while dad bought 3 pairs of black shoes.. Plus yesterday 2 pairs of shoes.. Dad been buying 5 pairs of shoes in 2 days.. 1 word~~"GENG!!"</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em>When in the factory that dad been constructing, I met Justin and Joshua.. Have some chat with them la. Then went home with them, since parents need to stay there to do some stuff.. Haha.. Actually, quite fun hanging with them la.. 1 thing that memalukan is---I cant open my house's lock.. no face ya..</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em>At home, mopped the whole house.. So so tired.. Then, prepare dinner for sister. Then, washed al my clothes, had my dinner, bath and finally start doing my organic chemistry lab report.. Now almost finish liao.. So happy.. Because just now still worry cannot finish the lab report on time.. Doing it together with May.. Discussing in MSN.. Haha.. geng le??</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"><em>Tomorrow got work again.. Then, at night going back Setapak with kor and adeline.. Haha.. Monday coming again.. So lazy to go for class.. Haiz. Because I haven revise my organic chemistry.. Which I bet with kor that I will study it in this week.. Look like I cant take it.. Haiz.. This weekends so busy!!</em></span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-1968585531331955962008-05-25T20:27:00.002+08:002008-05-25T21:09:36.816+08:00Weekend~~<span style="color:#ffccff;">Yesterday went to easy pha-max conference with parents. Justin, Joshua <span style="font-size:85%;">(Justin's brother)</span> and Kien Mun follow along. I woke up at 6.00am to morning call Kien Mun, then i sleep back until 7.00am only wake up. Haha!! Me so evil la. =p </span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">After woke up, went to bath and eat breakfast lo. Then, sms him but he never reply, so I called him again. He memang like to be late la. Beh tahan.. Haha.. He was late again, but nevermind la since parents just get ready on that time. After that, we went to Justin's house to pick them up. Me so cham!! Sit with 3 guys at the back seat, like sardine only. Because all so big size, make me no place to sit. Sob sob~~</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">When reached there, my legs cramp, faster climbed out from the car. Haha. We went to the hall, having breakfast. Me actually dont plan to eat, because dont feel like eating. But mum start to nag, said paid liao, dont waste the money.. Then, Joshua took 3 pieces of sandwiches for me, so have to eat lo. After ate breakfast, I followed mum go register lo. The company system very teruk le. Sent them the name, but they never wrote it on the ID. Cacat la.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">We went inside the hall and ready for the speech. Kien Mun's promoter called, so he went out to answer the call la. Then, he just stay outside until I sms him. Mum keep asking me where he went, so fan.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">After listen half way, start to feel sleepy liao. Then, he went out again. I dont like lunch break. Only 45 minutes, and itu Kien Mun dont know go where liao. Mum keep ask me to call him. Buthe pulak switch off phone. Feel like punch him and scold him kau kau. Bu shuang..XP </span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">And the lunch also teruk la.. Never prepare well, we been waiting for the food so long. When reached our turn, all the food finished. Damn sui la.. Then, wait for the food lo. Then, Chee Hou sms-ed me that result is out. So I am so nervous, asking sister helps me check for the result.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">After knew my result, me no mood eat my lunch liao. Because I am too happy. The result is better than what I been expected.. Haha.. Can chuan in front Kien Mun, Justin and Joshua. After lunch, teman mum go toilet. She nag me because I keep talking to Joshua and Kien Mun. Ask me keep quiet. Just dont understand why she nag me about that. Not my fault also, they are boring so they talk to me la. sob~~</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">The second part of the conference started. Kien Mun, Joshua and Justin start to fall asleep. Haha.. So nice to kacau them, disturb them from sleeping. Haha. Finally, the talks ended. Happy time because no need sit inside the hall anymore. Prepare for dinner.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">We went to upstair to look at the scenery. Then, we took some photo. Haha.. Our first picture is at here. Havent get the picture from Justin.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">The company service is teruk la. Never register mum's name. So we have to sit at different table. The uncles same table with me like hungry ghost, so scary la. The dinner is so bad. The food sux man, not nice de. Never eat full full also. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">**Half way of the dinner, the company hold a donation for the Si Chuan earthquake. Dad donated Rm50. I am so touch when listen to the speech. Why this happened to our earth? Wonder.. **</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">When came back home, I be the sardine again. Reached home on 12.00am. Sleepy~~ Slept at 1.50am. SO tired!!</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">=====================================</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">Today woke up at 10.45am. Actually me suppose to work at 10am, but he helps me work first, so that I no need to wake up so early. I went to work on 1pm. Haha. He is late for work again today. We suppose to work on 10am, but he reached at 10.45am. Haha. So he changed the time setting. Bad boy ya.</span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">He went out at 2.30pm to Klang, I guess. Feel sorry because I kept on call him. So many thing happen today. Me is so stupid, keep making mistakes. Luckily all the customers are so nice, they never scold me for being so slow. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">Then, I told him come back faster. He came back at 6.00pm. So, I learned to close account. So happy le. Because the amount in computer and the machine is the same. Haha.. First time le. And I still haven meet my boss. Wonder how he look like?? </span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffccff;">When I went back, he still there, because need to wait for boss to take over the shift. Kelian him. Because he never take the salary. The salary is for me de. He filled in the card that me working. But actually, he worked in the morning, but he never take the salary. This few days also like that. When I worked with him, all the salary I take. Haha. He work without salary. Blek..</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-45285592822264428902008-05-23T11:03:00.005+08:002008-05-23T11:53:05.364+08:00Life!!<span style="color:#ffcccc;">Me going back to school soon.. Haha.. So happy, because finally holidays come to an end. Cant wait to go back.. Wonder who will be my coursemates. Yet, now still worry about my result. The UTAR so slow la. Until now still haven upload our result in intranet. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">I haven pay my bill yet. Haha. Haven collect my UTAR t-shirt, file and also haven go to take picture for the student ID. So so so busy.......</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">I want my time table, because I have to confirm with Kien Mun about the promoter job in GIANT. Haiz... I wish I can take up the job, but scare crash with my studies. One more thing is the job is on saturday and sunday. And my birthday is on saturday, I want go out celebrate with friends. But i need money also.. How?? Wonder should I accept the job offer?? </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#cc66cc;">=============================================================</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;">Yesterday went out with Joan, Chee Shan, Joe Hui, Xinnee and Hui Nien. Sorry ya gals, I cant have dinner with you all. Yi Lian, sorry cant meet you up yesterday. I have to rush back because I knew he will be late for work again. Haha.. But nevermind la, dy biasa la..</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"> I bought J CO donuts yesterday. only bought half dozen la.. Sharing with friends. Then today is sister's birthday. So the donuts become sister's birthday present. Me so smart le. Niway, just wanna said, "Sis, happy birthday lo!!" Me long time never said happy birthday to siblings and parents liao, because it will feel so weird to wish them. Haha.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;">He came at 7.20pm <span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#ff9900;">(if I am not wrong) </span>. </span><span style="font-size:100%;">Late again. Then, he went out again. Left me in book store until 10 something. Luckily, nothing happen, I am still able to handle the problems. Lucky thing is boss never come and not even call. Good la.. Because yesterday I was so worry that boss will drop by and call to know how is the business. I never see boss before ma. Of course will scare la.. </span></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;">A day finished. Was so tired. Because i been wearing contact lense for whole day, eyes were so so tired. Haha. After he went back then I mai go sleep lo. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">=============================================================</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff9966;">Tomorrow have to wake up early, going to eaay pha-max conference. Haiz.. Mum also called him go, so tomorrow I need to morning call him liao. If not, he sure wake up late again de. Haha.. Hope he can wake up la.. Because he today works until 12 am again. Lazy pig~~</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-45662349144095244292008-05-15T20:24:00.002+08:002008-05-15T21:00:09.571+08:00one day trip..<span style="color:#ffccff;">I went to setapak today with kim leong and xinnee.. We went to pasar seni first, then we went to makan at McDonald. After that only sit LRT go Wangsa Maju. When I at the LRT station, the machine cacat la. Dont want eat my ticket, make me jam there because cannot get my card. Haha.. After reach Wangsa Maju, we went to my room in Setapak. We sitting inside do nothing, talking only. Then we went to Kim Leong's room, go see the store room. Haha. Then we went to UTAR campus, go walk walk awhile. The campus quite far le. Walk until leg pain.. Blek.. Then xinnee and me went back ourselves, because Kim Leong has something to do. Finally reach home at 5pm. Tired ya.. Finally finally, i knew how to go setapak. And today is the FIRST time i sit LRT.</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-24253276390742744072008-05-13T21:06:00.000+08:002008-05-13T21:08:14.469+08:00nightmare!!<span style="color:#99ff99;">今天又发梦了,发了一个很奇怪的梦。<br /><br />地点:UTAR PJ Campus PA Block<br /><br />突然梦见自己出现在PA141(应该是吧,如果没记错的话)。奇怪的是,自己竟然在里面处理着一堆香蕉。课室里面有人谈论着一宗谋杀案。当时我的身分好像是一位警员,处理香蕉的当儿,也和他们谈了谈这个案件。不久后,小张走过来和我一起收拾那堆香蕉。他看到那香蕉又大又黄,便拿了一条来吃。他还给了我一条,可是我看到那香蕉好像坏了,告诉他,他却不听。突然,那条香蕉变成青色(好像一堆algae黏在上面似的),还没来得及告诉小张时,他已经将香蕉吃完,拍拍屁股走掉了。留我在那堆香蕉前发呆。<br /><br />之后,自己突然有一种不好的预感,好像什么坏事会发生似的。我在UTAR里,没有目标的走上走下,很迷惘,不知道自己要干嘛。<br /><br />隔天,去到学校,自己一个人站在biology lab前面,又发起呆来了。就在这个时候接到joan cheng的电话,可是我听不到她说什么。不久后,jay打给我,他告诉我,小张死了。他叫我去看布告板,因为那儿刊登了他的死讯。报章刊登了他的死状,很恶心了。是谁杀死了小张?没有人知道。<br /><br />突然间,自己又换了身分,成为一位学生,坐在课室里考试。当天考的是数学科,可是考卷却是华语考试,而且校方还采用了seafield的考卷。奇怪的另一点竟然是Puan Ng Swee Chin是我的考官。可是,我却没法回答这张考卷。脑海里充满了关于小张的死,自己会和他一样吗?当时的我,真的很乱。Yen Ee一直问我一大堆问题,搞到我快崩溃了。<br /><br />过后,爸竟然拿了pizza来请我的朋友。看到贤政和紫珊在课室里,还有一班不认识的人。紫珊问我要不要和蘑菇汤,可是我没睬她,因为在这一刻,我想到一些东西。那就是:“在那间课室吃东西的人,都会死、死。。。。”脑袋就一片空白,过后就醒来了。<br /><br />是不是很奇怪?不要问我谁是小张、joan cheng和jay,因为我并不认识他们。哈哈。。<br /><br />最近自己好像真的挺会发梦的哦。发的都是奇奇怪怪的梦,快疯了。。</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-17621104032422921572008-05-12T20:52:00.003+08:002008-05-12T21:05:02.724+08:00《永不死心的男人》<span style="color:#ffcccc;">今天在家读了张小娴的散文集<span style="color:#ff6666;">《</span><span style="color:#ff6666;">欲望的鸵鸟》</span>里的一篇散文<span style="color:#ff6666;">《永不死心的男人</span><span style="color:#ff6666;">》</span>。她描述的散文是这样的:<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#cc66cc;"><em>当你不喜欢一个人的时候,你是什么也会看他不顺眼的。即使是很小很小的事情。例如头发的分界;他的发界太偏左,你会认为是很大的问题。他常常开怀大笑,也会惹你讨厌。他为什么不能酷一点?他的鼻孔太大了,他的皮肤偏黄,她的手指太长,这些统统都是不能容忍的缺点。<br /><br />当他爱你而你不爱他的时候,他总是有很多事情令你看不顺眼。人太好,也是问题。对你太好,也叫你受不了。你就是不喜欢他对你这么好。你尤其讨厌他对你千依百顺。<br /><br />当你越是尝试去喜欢他,你越是看他不顺眼。为什么我们会这么差劲呢?那个人并没有对我们不好;相反的,他很好很好。对我不好的人,我会死心塌地,对我好的,我偏偏要折磨她。<br /><br />是的,他这么好,我会难过。我会抱怨,为什么对我这样的不失我爱的那个人,而是一个我不爱的人?所以,我特别憎恨他。<br /><br />只要我不爱他,我会用显微镜去观察他的缺点。然而,当他死心了,撤退了,我又会有点失落。既然他那么爱我,我还以为他是永不死心的。我想要一个永不死心的男人,世上有吗?</em><br /></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcccc;">我认同她的看法,应该是完全认同。越喜欢自己的人,我会觉得他越讨厌。不懂为什么。听到他的声音时会觉得很刺耳。他的关心让我觉得很烦。总而言之,就是觉得他很讨厌。自己会去避开他,不想见到他。可是当他死心时,自己确实会觉得很失落。<br /><br />失落,<br />因为没有人纠缠不清,<br />因为得不到他的注意,<br />因为没有人再把自己捧本在手心,<br /><br />可是,时间久了,自然就放下咯。<br /><br />爱情本来就是酱嘛?越想得到,就越难得到吗?哈哈~~</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-70176335632799579092008-05-10T21:11:00.002+08:002008-05-10T21:30:58.504+08:00"afternoon-mare"??<span style="color:#cc66cc;">Today, parents left house early.. Can sleep until late late only wake up.. But still my that brother, suddenly so hardworking want go library study, so sister has to fetch him go la.. Make me cannot sleep until very very late.. 10am woke up.. Bu shuang lo.. Then, eat my breakfast.. Read novel then watch cartoon.. 1pm that time, feel hungry.. So ask sister go ta pau la.. She bought me tom yam fried rice.. Haha.. Quite spicy la.. After makan, feel sleepy pulak.. So go to sleep la.. Sleep sleep sleep.. Then have a bad dream.. Dream of I got a down syndrome boy friend.. And his mum asking me out yam cha, said want to discuss about our wedding.. Haha.. Then i refuse to marry with him.. Then his parents called my nanny and talk to her about it.. And nanny ask me think clearly.. Walao.. What kind of dream is it? Fast fast wake up.. Dont want continue to dream about this matter liao.. Think I watch too much TV liao.. Haha.. Then I mop the whole floor.. And watch TV again.. After that, eat dinner.. But eat abit only, give brother the rest.. Because still feel full.. Then now, I am hungry again.. Want to go find something to eat.. Haha.. Getting fat liao lo..=p</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-9495086704774011462008-05-09T21:44:00.002+08:002008-05-09T22:10:27.253+08:00What a day??<span style="color:#ffff99;">I hate it.. Idiot.. I want go out then go out la.. I am 19 this year.. No longer a small kid, k? I can take care myself.. Give me some freedom, k? I just went out with friends.. Someone that you all know well.. But why still want scold.. I not asking money from you all also.. Today I didn't even spend any money.. I admitted that I going out, because I just want to be honest.. But why still want scold me.. And I finished everything, all my works before I going out.. I just want a little bit of freedom.. I am not a bird in the cage..</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff99;">Excuse me.. What you mean by "You are not important?" A cloth is more important than your own daughter? Now i knew it.. Do you know how hurt i felt? Just in order to dry your pants, you said this to me.. Sometime I really wonder.. How can you said it to me? I am your daughter.. I am here not for you to scold, to nag, to complaint about.. I am your daughter not your maid, k?</span><br /><span style="color:#ffff99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff99;">Why want spoilt my mood like this? Today is a happy day for me, but it is before i met my parents at home.. Just let me be happy just a day, is it so hard for you two to make it? Please.. Why I need to live like this.. I dont dare to fight back because I know I am your daughter.. No matter what I said, you all wont listen.. But just be fair.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffff99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffff99;">I want my own life.. I want to live my life happily.. But your words really hurt me a lot.. I dont dare to tell you what I think face to face.. But I hope you all know that, child is a gift.. Not a burden.. Love your child, care about them.. Not by pressuring them.. I hope to see changes when I come back from setapak</span> <span style="font-size:78%;color:#ffcccc;">(although it is still have 3 more weeks to go, before i staying at setapak)</span><span style="color:#ffcccc;">..</span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-52354077279719971492008-05-07T20:21:00.001+08:002008-05-07T20:22:55.545+08:00=(<div align="center"><span style="color:#ff9900;">dont ever hey me again..</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#ff9900;">me bu shuang with that, k??</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:180%;color:#ff9900;"><strong>=(</strong></span></div>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7874954236489811866.post-44815429536455590302008-05-06T15:41:00.000+08:002008-05-06T15:41:18.446+08:00problems~~<span style="color:#ffcc99;">I dont want stay at home.. Everyday facing the wall, cant really find someone to talk to.. I cant tell them about what am I thinking, who am I actually missing, what I want to do and where I want to go.. What I can do is just sitting at home, reading story books, helping mum cleaning the house.. I am lazy.. I dont want to do housework.. My hand still pain, but I dont have choice.. If I doont do, sure kena nag whole day again.. Everyday have to wake up early, but why sister can sleep until so late? Because she is working and I am not? Where can like this.. It is so unfair.. I have to do all the stuff, while she no need by complaint that her leg kena bite by ants?? I whole bosy aaching still have to mop the whole house le.. Why I cannot complaint? Wonder.. Really bu shuang about this.. Please be fair..</span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">You always said I am useless, but do you even think about what is my feeling?? When people praise your daughter, you should be proud.. Not by pijak-ing your daughter infront of others.. This really make me feel bad.. Be proud of your own child.. Give them hope by encourage them, not by complainting them infront of other people.. It really make me feel embarrassed.. Please give me a stage to go down.. You always said I am useless.. But do you even try to understand what I want? I knew myself very well.. I am not that kind of child that can work part-time while studying.. If I able to handle my studies well, maybe I will work for part-time.. But the problem is without working part-time, my result not that good compare to others.. But i tried my best.. I want you to be proud.. Maybe I am not the best daughter in the world, but at least I still able to make you feel proud of.. What you all want actually? A smart daughter but cant work part-time job or a stupid daughter that can earn money? Is it so important that I cant earn money? I tried not to spend so much.. That is the reason why I always stay at home, never go out with friends, never go yam cha.. Because I know I cant earn money.. I know I been spending a lot of money for tuitions, buying things, national service.. Sorry about that.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">I dont want to compare with others.. But I just cant do it.. I know I should be happy for being able to have a family, have a place to live, have money to use.. But sometimes I just dont understand why I always kena nag.. Because I am lazy? Because of my hot-tempered?? Or because I always stay at home but I cant help much?? Who can tell about this?? It is really stressful staying at home.. I always listen to the same thing.. I dont know to cook, I dont know to drive, I dont know to help do housework, I dont know to earn money, like to make my own decision.. What I know is sleeping, eating, daydreaming, reading novel, watching televisyen.. Haha.. Quite true also.. But dont la everyday say back the same thing.. Very annoying.. And everytime I heard it, sure become moody and bad-temper de.. Change something new la.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">Dad is ok with the room I rent in setapak.. But mum is not happy about it.. She keeps thinking that I make my own decision about the room.. I dont want to stay near the school, want go stay at some where that are far from school.. Dad is happy because the room I am renting is quite convenience.. Near school and got food stall there.. But mum think the different way.. If I stay at the same house with Kim Leong, he will be able to look after me.. But the problem is if I want go eat, I have to walk quite a distance le.. Which one is better?? Dad want bought a new MyVi to sister.. The Kelisa will put at setapak for me to learn to drive.. Want me to practise to drive when in setapak.. Haha.. But the problem is I am worry.. It has been so long i never drive car.. Now regret also no use.. Haha.. </span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ffcc99;">I still dont know when am I shifting to setapak.. Plan to start staying there on june.. So need to fan for the first week.. Dont know how.. Want tumpang at friend's house.. But no idea.. Haiz.. </span>vivianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13440772649972933000noreply@blogger.com2