彩虹

昨天下午下了一场大雨，被困在学校一个小时。。大雨后，太阳又跑出来了。。陪jason去拿脚车。。就在这时候，看到了好久没看过的彩虹。。这彩虹很大叻。。看到吗？？

Full view..

彩虹的一端。。

因为有彩虹，让人看到许多色彩，因此也让人对生命报有希望和期待。。这样人生才会精彩和惊喜。。

祝我生日快乐！！

有长大一岁了。。哈哈！！终于迈进二字头了。。二加零等于二十（2 + 0 = 20)。。感觉好冷噢。。二十岁要有二十岁的成熟，不可以再像小孩子一样任性了。。感觉好像有点难。。因为我本来就很幼稚。。哈哈。。今年的生日怎么过呢？？让我告诉你吧。。

本小姐本来打算星期五回subang，找我那班可爱的死党庆祝的。。可是我却很聪明的，没有赶得及乘搭那一趟火车。。因为，那个伟大的德士司机竟然没有来载我到火车站去。。想到就生气。。浪费我的电话前，时间，和火车票。。气到我要发狂。。到电话问他时，他竟然跟我说他不记得，说对不起。。这位善忘的安哥，我再也不会叫你的德士了。。

凌晨的时候被dear骗，骗我有人打电话来。。后面偷偷准备蛋糕。。算有惊喜吧。。虽然自己其实有猜到他会买蛋糕。。哈哈。。算他过关咯。。

dear 准备的蛋糕。。

dear 送的小熊。。 可爱吗？？

may 和 leong 送的礼物。。

生日没什么特别啦。。第一次跟男朋友过生日咯。。成天两个人。。第一次这么少人陪我过生日。。还满怀念以前一班人出去走走，吃东西庆祝的那一刻。。不过，今年的很简单啦。。就在家看看戏，做做功课和出去吃晚餐。。简简单单也可以很快乐了。。

其实整天都在等祝福的短讯。。虽然不多啦。。有

1) Yi Lian

2) Chee Shan

3) Joan

4) Joe Hui

5) Hui Nien

6) Shao Li

7) Xinnee

8) Liang Ping

9) Fong Voon

10) Marcus

11) Yen Chin

12) Ze Lene

13) Jason

14) Kim Leong

15) Ying Wai

16) Sister

17) Brother

18) Kor

19) Kalai

20) Huey Ling

21) Pui Yen

22) Kay Sim

23) Thu Yuen

24) Ke Jun

25) Mei Seong

26) Shyan Jen

27) Sharon Chua

28) Kuan Nien

29) Paul

30) Svenni

谢咯大家。。

很期待其他人的礼物哦。。回subang要慢慢研究了。。哈哈。。

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原来自己是这么的没用。。说好不要去想，不要为这一切感到难过，不要再去在乎这一切，可是自己原来根本做不到。。朋友对你而言，到底是什么？我想朋友最高境界应该是可有可无吧。。可是，这还称得上朋友吗？

我已经有好多天没跟这些所谓的朋友说话了。。我已经不懂自己要把你们当成朋友，还是陌生人呢？？越来越不了解你们。。问题是出在自己身上，还是别人呢？不知道。。这整个学期都在烦恼这件事。。

原来，人类是这么虚伪的。。害怕别人超越自己，而戴上面具做人。。有必要吗？？朋友到底是什么？？不明白。。真希望你们可以好好想想。。需要这样做吗？难道你们不辛苦吗？或许，对你们而言，朋友就是应该互相利用吧。。

我面对你们，真的很累了。。对你们坏，我不忍心；把你们当透明，我办不到。。问题好像是自己太在乎你们的存在。。有些人问我：＂难道你在班上没有一个比较好的朋友吗？＂我不知道要怎样回答。。我想，那个比较好的朋友已经放弃了这段友谊了吧。。我想，我也是时候放下这段友谊了。。或许。。

原来爱情本来就是排在第一位。。现在，我明白了。。哈哈！！有时觉得自己很可笑。。或许，我也是把感情放在第一位吧。。只是，自己还没找到自己的归属而已。。

我懂，现在开始有流言非语说我有新目标了。。有些人嘴巴就是这么得空，喜欢说人家的私事。。我是喜欢一个人啊。。想知道不会来问我啊？在我背后猜测有用吧？喜欢人家是我的事，你幸福是你的事。。拥有了就要抓紧。。不要好奇还没比你幸福的人的事。。有什么事，请冲着我来，不要影响到其他人。。懂吗？嘴巴是你们的，我控制不了。。可是，我希望你们闭上你们的嘴巴，管好自己的事。。有什么想法，请自己来跟我说，我不想听到别人传话。。明白吗？

人生=死亡

人生就是这么的反覆无常。这一刻对你嘻嘻哈哈的人，可能下一秒再也不存在。这就是人生吗？一个让人们觉得可怕的字眼。。人生的尽头就是死亡。没有人能长命百岁，每个人都要面临死亡。。问题是死神总是在人类还没准备好面对的时候，找上人类。死神从不给你一丝机会说＂不＂。为什么？现实总是这么残酷？为什么人类没有选择的机会。。为什么死神无时无刻都在寻找＂猎物＂？人类就只能被死神操控？为什么人类就是不能操控自己的人生？

死亡或许并没有想象中可怕。对一些人来说，死亡或许是一种解脱，一个远离痛苦的选择。死亡给人类重生的机会。可是，对许多人而言，死亡是多么的可怕。死亡让人类和亲爱的家人，朋友分开，离开人世，一步一步地走向黑暗的地狱。一个人孤独的走向人生的另一端。这时候，又有多少个人可以勇敢地面对死亡。

人类都会害怕死亡的。任何人在面对死亡的时候都会变得格外的胆小。＂害怕＂这两个字，已经无法形容那一刻的感受。人类是会贪心的，没有人希望自己的人生是短暂的，可以的话，人类都希望能长命百岁。

相信，许多人都有规划自己人生的习惯吧，计划自己的未来，想做的事，想完成的愿望，想达到的目标。可是，又有多少人，可以在短暂的人生中真正完成自己的理想呢？想。。答案应该是不多吧。你呢？你会规划自己的人生吗？我的答案是＂不会＂。这不是因为懒散，或者是没有理想。这是因为我想做的事情太多了。不规划人生是因为害怕自己无法完成自己的理想，是因为不想带着遗憾离开。

或许，这有点悲观，可是这是事实。时间是不会为你而停留的。想做的事情，有机会去完成时，就要去实行。时间和机会是不会等你的。不要让自己留下任何遗憾。珍惜眼前人才是重点，错过的已成了历史。不要让自己有借口在记忆中徘徊。

Kamparrrrrrrr~~~

so long din write blog dy..
went to kampar and staying there now..
life here so boring..
no entertaiment, not shopping mall..
only got campus and yam cha places..
haiz..
classes here start so early..
everyday have to wake up early..
sienz~~
everyday go to campus with empty empty mind and blur blur face..
the classes here also end so late..
in between got so many hours break..
crazy!!!
no transport cannot go out..
everyday travel to campus and back home..
no life la...

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有时候，我写的东西或许你们不了解。。我没有要求你们去明白。。
之前的那个文章根本就不是在说我放不下，请不要瞎猜。。
你已经是过去式，我不会强求。。
我只是希望你们开开心心。。
我没有坏到要去诅咒你们。。
谁不懂爱情是不能勉强的？？
不是我的，强求也没用。。
你们要误会我，我也没办法。。
如果每一件事，可以为所欲为的话，我就不需要去烦了。。
你们要怎么想我管不着。。
我不懂事情会变成这样。。
好好想想吧。。
有些话，说了是收不回的。。
我没办法让你们了解我。。
也没办法去控制你们是怎样想我的。。
我需要的是朋友，偶尔会为我着想的朋友，不时会去怀疑我人格的朋友。。
我是很想放弃这一切，可是我不会去做。。
因为我会活得更好。。

绝交

曾经我们是无话不谈的好朋友，
曾经我们是多么的依赖对方，
曾经我把你放在一个很重要的位子，
曾经我多么的想维持我们之间的友谊，
曾经我多么的在意你。。
那都是曾经！！
你们能在一起，我会祝福你们。。在同一个时间，我想我必须放弃我们之间的友谊。。
我没有你们想象中这么伟大。。我没办法跟你们做朋友。。
你利用我对你的信任。。
你懂我对你有多失望吗？？
我以为好朋友是什么都可以分享的，原来是我错了。。
爱情是自私的。。
在你拥有爱情的那一刻，你有想过我的感受吗？
你懂我有多难受吗？
我不甘心，不甘心为什么自己默默付出，却什么都没得到。。
不甘心你什么都没做，为什么你却能拥有。。
我讨厌！！讨厌你不会做人！！
不要以为自己很委屈。。我并不需要低声下气来央求你做我的朋友。。
你的事，我不管了。。
祝你好运！！！

懊恼！！

真讨厌！！为什么要换时间？下星期有三个考试叻。。都不懂要怎样开始读。。每个考试隔的时间又不多。不知道够不够时间温习完。。开始担心了。。这几天都在做礼物。。每晚都很迟睡觉。。不过，算了啦。。自己傻傻要去做。。现在快完成了。。很开心叻。。＝）哈哈。。
已经确定明年会去金宝了。。现在又得烦恼去那儿要跟住。。要住哪里也还是个问题。。跟朋友开玩笑说，没地方住，就在学校范围内起营，可以省房租。。不错吧！！金宝的朋友，帮我留意一下，看有什么房子是要出租的。。有好介绍记得告诉我哦。。哈哈。。

Life in Week 9~~

Wonder why am I blogging so that "early".. Haha.. Just finish up my computer system and application's assignment. Been worry a lot for the assignment. Worry cannot finish it on time, worry last minute work will sauce my lossing marks.. Blaming May for being selfish for going back hometown last.. Niway, sorry for being so not understanding.. I know is not her fault.. She miss home too.. Just that I am not last minute do-er.. I cannot stand the stress for doing last minute.. I am depressing last saturday.. Complaining to Leong about everything.. Crying out to release all my stress and depressing feeling.. I been worry a lot.. Sometime i really wonder, can I actually stand all the stress anymore.. Not mean to complaining about it.. But what I been thinking, if I dont tell, how people will know what am I actually thinking..

For me, I admit that I always take the responsibility with me for most of the assignments. Because I know if I dont push them to do the assignment, they will leave it until last minute. I tried not to give them too much pressure, because I know they same as me, have to study for tests.. When I think for them, will they think the same way back to me?? But this is me myself causing all this.. Haha.. Scare this and that.. End up stressing myself up.. I try to stand the stress, but I am human also le.. Will also complain and feel tired de.. Can I have a shoulder when I am tired?? Wonder.. I know a lot of friends care about me.. Thats why I try not to make them worry..

Now, finally finished one assignment.. Got one more to finish.. Political Science.. Still got time, so let them do slowly la.. Sometime also pity May.. Her work is the heavier.. Need to rephrase and translate the whole assignment paper work.. Sorry for being so unfair.. But your english the best among all of us.. Do it slowly la.. Because next week very busy.. Need to study for tests, do reports.. Try not to pressure her so much.. Haha.. What can we do now is.. Keep adding oil lo.. Until maximum..

Yesterday sat for my organic chemistry test.. Kinda disappointed with my answer.. Because what I suppose to know, I forgotten.. All the reactions, mostly I forgotten.. So I can only simply write whataver I think of lo.. I manage finished all the question. except the last question.. Can finish does not mean I can score, ok?? Trying my best to recall back all the reactions and mechanisms, then only realise that.. My brain is EMPTY!! Then, can only simply crap in the test.. Got write some thing, at least better than never answer ma.. Mana tau, maybe kena correct then go marks lo.. Haha.. Have to think positively ma.. Agree with me??

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Talk back about last few weeks.. I read sister's blog.. Realising that she actually facing some of the problems i been facing.. And I suddenly miss grandparents so much.. I stay to miss home.. Suddenly realise how my parents actually care about me.. Although just a call a day, but it means a lot.. I miss my sister warm and touch messages.. Actually, I kinda susprise my sister's messages.. I cried when i read her messages.. Cried not because I am sad, but is because I dont know that she will really read what I wrote..

I thought of my childhood.. She used to be protect me when I am small.. I miss that kind of feeling.. Dont know since when, we dont really tell each other about our problems.. I really miss the time we have pillow talk.. Knowing each other questions.. I know you got a lot problems.. Dont all keep in your heart la.. Haha..

Dont know why suddenly talk about this.. Niway, thanks for the messages.. I can still handle my studies.. Dont worry.. If really cannot stand, I'll also bare with it.. I wont give up that easy.. It is my future, I dont want regret.. Work for the best and try my best to achieve what I want.. Will jia you de.. Haha..

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This week dont really get enough sleep due to the organic chemistry test.. Everyday study until 2-3am only sleep.. Tuesday practical lab supposed to postpone from 8.30am to 1pm de.. So I studied until 3something in the morning, think of that class start late.. I am doing mechanisms notes until that late.. And I can actually feel that my body cant take it anymore.. Because as time passed by, I start to feel headache, dizzy and feel like vomitting.. But I forced myself to finish it before I can sleep peacefully.. Finally so happy I managed to finish it.. But manatau when 7am that time, May called me..Informed me that the practical lab never postpone.. As usual start at 8.30am.. You know what is my first reaction?? Haha.. Jump out from bed, and shout what the.. I just slept le.. Now need to wake up pulak.. Luckily I never study until 5something in the morning, a bo me practical that time sure pengsan de.. So kelian.. Not enough sleep.. Then after practical, went back home and take a nap.. But then at night no mood study, sleep quite early.. 12something in the morning.. The next day, went to campus early to K book.. Haha..

Today, I sleep late again.. Kinda emo this week.. Maybe because too stress liao.. Haha.. Tomorrow going to sleep in lecture class.. My Cell Biology tutorial haven do le.. Tomorrow want go copy answer.. Haha.. Degree student lazy to do tutorial.. Realise that I never do most of my tutorial.. Must change liao.. Haha..

2 more tests(computer lab test and Political Science), 2 more lab reports(Cell Bio and Organic Chemistry) and 2 assingments(Computer and Political Science) to be complete in next week.. Jia you lo!!! Gambateh..
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Just finished my Computer System and Application Test.. Sob sob.. Dont know to do.. Thought lecturer will ask those common abit de question, manatau she go ask those pelik pelik de questions.. Crack my head think for the answer.. But otak kosong de.. At the end, me just simply write whatever I know lo.. The test result sure very teruk de.. No eyes see lo.. Haiz..
Exam half way, got a girl pengsan.. Dont know why.. Everyone so curious.. Include me la.. I somemore go 8, see i can help anot.. Haha.. But the friend dont want listen to our advice, then fine lo.. Go back my place continue exam.. But o.. Too excited or some how, I cant concentrate do the test.. No mood to do.. End up asking answer from other people.. Haha.. But not all la.. Just the fill in the blank de.. Blek..
Tomorrow got presentation le.. Me haven prepare le.. Sob sob.. Dont know what to wear also.. Haiz.. Start to feel nervous ady..
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Next week die hard lo.. because:
2 tests, 2 reports, 2 assignments..
I WANT DIE LIAO!!!
I am not robot le.. Need to complete so many task in a week.. Haiz.. Cannot sleep liao..