me myself..

Kor messaged me yesterday. He reply:"Hi sis,there?so hw's ur day?wat u learned frm d emotion past few days?sory at 1st,nt i dun reply much,bt i do tink u ned a pair of earz mr than words, so i jz lend u my earz..beside,i tink u can tink beter nw d2,huh?bt u alwaz hv a lil.bad habit,u alwaz compare bek, compare dat ur bad,ur -ve,ur nt gud,y nvr lok @ d gudside?u ned2walk of frm tinkin urself as a failure, else u wil b dir 4eva..no mtr hw gud ur..u live on ur own feet 4ur own,nt 4me,nt bcoz of him,nt even jz 2proof anytin..jz live ur life,live it wel,dat simple,can?no 1can gv u confidence,bcoz if d confidence iz given,means u nvr have it at all..find ur own's,build ur own,n bproud bt nt ego,4 ur own..all d best to u2,in d upcumin test..gudluck,n jiayou,may u b tough..n sory,2reply late.."
Da message was so long.. Its meaningful.. I try to learn from what he told me.. I tried.. But always failed to do so.. maybe it is just because i don't even try it.. I always give myself excuses.. I always stand at the same place, never even think of to change my attitude.. I do not know to appreciate.. I always thought that i was treated badly by my parents.. I understand why they treat me in that way.. This is all because they want me to do better, to make them proud of.. but sometimes i just cant accept it.. I always think that life is so unfair.. why i have to be treated in this way?? I really don't understand it..
I understand that i live 4 my own.. Not for anyone.. I should be happy with everything.. I am luckier than some other people.. At least i got parents, got friends, got family, got chance to study.. But sometime i just cant comfort myself with that.. Cognitive dissonance(learned from management studies).. I am grow up now, should learn to think for myself.. Should plan for my own life, my future.. Not for anyone, but MYSELF.. Wish me good luck.. haha.. I will try to accieve what I want.. maybe not try is MUST.. for today onward, it will be a new day with new hopes.. jia you!!
I AM PROUD FOR BEING ME MYSELF!!