Life in Week 9~~

Wonder why am I blogging so that "early".. Haha.. Just finish up my computer system and application's assignment. Been worry a lot for the assignment. Worry cannot finish it on time, worry last minute work will sauce my lossing marks.. Blaming May for being selfish for going back hometown last.. Niway, sorry for being so not understanding.. I know is not her fault.. She miss home too.. Just that I am not last minute do-er.. I cannot stand the stress for doing last minute.. I am depressing last saturday.. Complaining to Leong about everything.. Crying out to release all my stress and depressing feeling.. I been worry a lot.. Sometime i really wonder, can I actually stand all the stress anymore.. Not mean to complaining about it.. But what I been thinking, if I dont tell, how people will know what am I actually thinking..

For me, I admit that I always take the responsibility with me for most of the assignments. Because I know if I dont push them to do the assignment, they will leave it until last minute. I tried not to give them too much pressure, because I know they same as me, have to study for tests.. When I think for them, will they think the same way back to me?? But this is me myself causing all this.. Haha.. Scare this and that.. End up stressing myself up.. I try to stand the stress, but I am human also le.. Will also complain and feel tired de.. Can I have a shoulder when I am tired?? Wonder.. I know a lot of friends care about me.. Thats why I try not to make them worry..

Now, finally finished one assignment.. Got one more to finish.. Political Science.. Still got time, so let them do slowly la.. Sometime also pity May.. Her work is the heavier.. Need to rephrase and translate the whole assignment paper work.. Sorry for being so unfair.. But your english the best among all of us.. Do it slowly la.. Because next week very busy.. Need to study for tests, do reports.. Try not to pressure her so much.. Haha.. What can we do now is.. Keep adding oil lo.. Until maximum..

Yesterday sat for my organic chemistry test.. Kinda disappointed with my answer.. Because what I suppose to know, I forgotten.. All the reactions, mostly I forgotten.. So I can only simply write whataver I think of lo.. I manage finished all the question. except the last question.. Can finish does not mean I can score, ok?? Trying my best to recall back all the reactions and mechanisms, then only realise that.. My brain is EMPTY!! Then, can only simply crap in the test.. Got write some thing, at least better than never answer ma.. Mana tau, maybe kena correct then go marks lo.. Haha.. Have to think positively ma.. Agree with me??

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Talk back about last few weeks.. I read sister's blog.. Realising that she actually facing some of the problems i been facing.. And I suddenly miss grandparents so much.. I stay to miss home.. Suddenly realise how my parents actually care about me.. Although just a call a day, but it means a lot.. I miss my sister warm and touch messages.. Actually, I kinda susprise my sister's messages.. I cried when i read her messages.. Cried not because I am sad, but is because I dont know that she will really read what I wrote..

I thought of my childhood.. She used to be protect me when I am small.. I miss that kind of feeling.. Dont know since when, we dont really tell each other about our problems.. I really miss the time we have pillow talk.. Knowing each other questions.. I know you got a lot problems.. Dont all keep in your heart la.. Haha..

Dont know why suddenly talk about this.. Niway, thanks for the messages.. I can still handle my studies.. Dont worry.. If really cannot stand, I'll also bare with it.. I wont give up that easy.. It is my future, I dont want regret.. Work for the best and try my best to achieve what I want.. Will jia you de.. Haha..

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This week dont really get enough sleep due to the organic chemistry test.. Everyday study until 2-3am only sleep.. Tuesday practical lab supposed to postpone from 8.30am to 1pm de.. So I studied until 3something in the morning, think of that class start late.. I am doing mechanisms notes until that late.. And I can actually feel that my body cant take it anymore.. Because as time passed by, I start to feel headache, dizzy and feel like vomitting.. But I forced myself to finish it before I can sleep peacefully.. Finally so happy I managed to finish it.. But manatau when 7am that time, May called me..Informed me that the practical lab never postpone.. As usual start at 8.30am.. You know what is my first reaction?? Haha.. Jump out from bed, and shout what the.. I just slept le.. Now need to wake up pulak.. Luckily I never study until 5something in the morning, a bo me practical that time sure pengsan de.. So kelian.. Not enough sleep.. Then after practical, went back home and take a nap.. But then at night no mood study, sleep quite early.. 12something in the morning.. The next day, went to campus early to K book.. Haha..

Today, I sleep late again.. Kinda emo this week.. Maybe because too stress liao.. Haha.. Tomorrow going to sleep in lecture class.. My Cell Biology tutorial haven do le.. Tomorrow want go copy answer.. Haha.. Degree student lazy to do tutorial.. Realise that I never do most of my tutorial.. Must change liao.. Haha..

2 more tests(computer lab test and Political Science), 2 more lab reports(Cell Bio and Organic Chemistry) and 2 assingments(Computer and Political Science) to be complete in next week.. Jia you lo!!! Gambateh..
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Just finished my Computer System and Application Test.. Sob sob.. Dont know to do.. Thought lecturer will ask those common abit de question, manatau she go ask those pelik pelik de questions.. Crack my head think for the answer.. But otak kosong de.. At the end, me just simply write whatever I know lo.. The test result sure very teruk de.. No eyes see lo.. Haiz..
Exam half way, got a girl pengsan.. Dont know why.. Everyone so curious.. Include me la.. I somemore go 8, see i can help anot.. Haha.. But the friend dont want listen to our advice, then fine lo.. Go back my place continue exam.. But o.. Too excited or some how, I cant concentrate do the test.. No mood to do.. End up asking answer from other people.. Haha.. But not all la.. Just the fill in the blank de.. Blek..
Tomorrow got presentation le.. Me haven prepare le.. Sob sob.. Dont know what to wear also.. Haiz.. Start to feel nervous ady..
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Next week die hard lo.. because:
2 tests, 2 reports, 2 assignments..
I WANT DIE LIAO!!!
I am not robot le.. Need to complete so many task in a week.. Haiz.. Cannot sleep liao..

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Life going to be very busy this coming few weeks.. Need to prepare for tests.. Every week also got test.. See the schedule also headache liao.. Want study, but like no mood only.. Do alot of notes, but sendiri still blur blur de.. Everyday sleep late, but need to wake up early.. Want skip class but cannot.. Scare got quiz or lecturer checks attendance.. Alot to worry about..

Assignments come one by one.. One haven finish, another come pulak.. Busy solving all the assignments question.. Haiz.. The progress ia kinda slow.. Hope can finish it before the due date la.. Group members like so relax, no worry de.. Or I really worry too much a?? Wonder..

Want give people pressure, end up sendiri pulak stress up.. So useless la.. Start to work hard this week.. Do revision, do reports, do tutorials, stop playing.. Haha.. Because I scare to score low in my test.. Kiasu..

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Sometime just dont know why.. Feel like to be alone.. Dont feel like talking to other people.. Dont like people ask alot of questions.. Just want to sit there quietly, think of something else.. Sometime feel like emotionally unstable.. Feel stress, but dont know where is the stress come from.. Communication break down with friends.. Really wonder what happen.. What I acually doing here?? Dont know..